During a chat over coffee this morning a colleague asked me the above-mentioned question and…I admit it…the first color that came to mind was black.
He smiled and said that was the first color that came to his mind, too, and during the following discussion we agreed that black would probably be the first color springing to mind for the majority of Americans and possibly other western cultures, too. (It would probably be white for many of those from eastern cultures.)
So why is this a trick question? Because black (and white in some cultures) is the color associated with death. But dying people aren’t dead yet. They’re still very much alive. This question reveals how we tend to subconsciously view the dying as close-enough-to-dead-to-count, an unfortunate tendency that does a lot of harm to everybody.
This prejudice is deeply ingrained as evidenced by the fact that even my colleague and I (who have worked extensively with the dying in hospice) still defaulted to black as our first association. Like any solid prejudice I believe it’ll take work to examine, uproot, and then change it, but it’s worth the effort because if we don’t, we’ll all wind up as one of “those people” while we’re dying and suffer the stigma and exile that currently goes along with it.
Once my colleague and I recognized and talked about our conditioned response, we then asked the question again and came up with completely different responses. He said that, for him, dying is actually quite purple, a color that he loves and relates to on a deep level. I on the other hand kept seeing a prism in my mind, shattering a sunbeam into a thousand different colors.
And here’s what I found most interesting about the difference. When I saw dying as black I felt like I’d just pulled a plastic bag over my head. But when I let that go and suddenly saw it as a prism full of rainbows instead, that feeling of suffocation turned into curiosity and wonder and a delightful sense of mystery which honestly was the experience I tended to actually have when I worked with hospice. It was really, really magical hanging out with dying people, not black at all.
BTW, the opening/closing question marks at the top of the post came from a Wikipedia discussion of question marks (“also known as an interrogation point, interrogation mark, question point, query, or eroteme”), which was kind of interesting in its own right and totally distracted me. (Not hard to do though.) Here’s the link.
copyright Dia Osborn 2013