Something happened yesterday around sunset that I hadn’t seen before. For about one minute:thirty-five, the last rays of the sun peeked out from under tumultuous, massed storm clouds and found a sliver of pathway between the branches of three big trees, around the patio roof, and through a major tangle of wisteria to actually make it in our kitchen window. The light was golden, dramatic, and lit up two vases sitting in the window like luminaries. And…in a complete fluke…I had my camera to hand. I took a dozen shots or so and this was at the peak of the light:
Hardly prize winning but it caught the effect so I was happy. It also, funnily enough, turned out be another accidental photo. I was only aiming for the vases but wound up capturing an entire series of worlds that I hadn’t seen when I first snapped the shot. I mean, look at them all. There’s…
1) the outside, distant garden,
2) the illuminated, inner world of the vases,
3) the invisible realm of glass separating the two (you can only see it by the ghostly reflections it casts),
4) the world of shadows at the bottom right, where the silhouette person lives, and then
5) the dark abyss just under the shelf.
There are more than five of course, (like the neighbor’s world through those darkened windows in the upper, right hand corner) but you get the gist. Without the camera I only perceived a single world with the vases as its dominant focal point. All the other unique, fascinating worlds present were reduced to background noise, like visual mall music. It took the camera to give me the time and mental shift necessary to see the rest.
I realize our brains are designed to take the overwhelming barrage of sensory detail that batters us at every moment, and filter it down to just one or two things that we can actually focus on. And this ability is a good thing. I understand that. Without it we’d all have Asperger’s.
But it also means that this seemingly solid, worthy, dependable world we put so much stock in is actually made up of layers upon layers of different realities, entire alternate worlds in fact, most of which we completely miss, all the time. Our perception of everything around us isn’t even real.
Or no…it’s real enough taken by itself I guess, but it’s only a teeny tiny sliver of what’s really real.
It’s like what the poor sun had to do to itself to make it all the way inside our kitchen window: Reduce an entire star’s massive energy field–immense enough to warm and light an entire solar system–into a low spectrum sunbeam, roughly 2 foot by 3 foot, that only lasted for a minute and a half. Talk about partial.
Having said all that though, still. The illuminated vases were very…very…cool, and I guess that’s enough. Sometimes, the slivers alone will knock your socks off.
copyright Dia Osborn 2011